to be on point everyday, all day is draining.  it leads people to have such high expectations, and in some cases, unrealistic.  i take pride that people want to see me excel and are actively try to faciliate it. however, the pressure weighs me down. it’s weird living on the east coast.  people are incredibly ambitious and addicted to work, whereas i like to balance my obligations.  even though i have been here for almost 3 years and have grown accustomed to much of the ways of the northeast, what i haven’t fully accepted is this need to be frantically moving from one place or task to the next.  the stress of one responibility is compounded by the anxiety of trying to complete all the tasks with quality.  so on some days, i say enough is enough, and release my worry about maximizing my potential for a moment, and just do the best i can do with this level of energy.